Hawaii 2009

I know this is going to sound weird but this has been a really hard thing to post. We went to Hawaii in January for a two week vacation with the Stone family. It was just long enough to start believing it was our new life and then we came home. Every time I look at my pictures I get this sadness that falls over me. We had the most incredible time together and I want to go back so bad that it hurts. I had it all there with the warm sunshine, the beautiful blue ocean with waves to play in, the perfumed sented flowers in the air, unbelievable fish and fruit, and most importantly my family around me all day every day. It truly was heaven on earth. I tried everything I could think of to stay there which included loosing my drivers licence, looking for a job for Chip or myself, trying to talk Chip into quiting his job and living off the land and many other tactics that did not work. Since we have been back my kids have gone back to school, Chip is gone at work, and London, Wyatt and I look out the cold window at our brown grass. I miss the ocean and dream to live by it one day but until then I am so grateful for the blessing we had to go to Hawaii and create amazing memories. I am also grateful that my camera survived the sand. It was a risk taking it to the beach every day but now I'm glad I did so I can look back with such fond memories.